10.03.2016

Week 53: Busy Area --- Here in the Desert

Let me think..... honestly my brain is mush. I love to be positive and happy about everything but lets be real. This week was THE MOST mentally exhausting week I have had. My prayers are a lot longer lately because I have a lot more to say now. My faith has been tested. I mainly learned that everything doesn't just get better by the flip of a switch. It takes constant and diligent prayer, seeking peace, and studying for answers. The Lord was very gracious because it only took about 3 days for me to feel normal again.  

I am not saying all this negatively at all, but more in gratitude. I am grateful that the Lord puts me in challenging situations for me to stretch myself and to learn the most from my time here. He has put a lot of trust in me as he has brought up so much change for me. SO really just the adjustments were the hard part. BUT I am adjusted now and I am at peace. SO much peace!! It is amazing how the Lord has truly given me the strength that I need and the energy I need that I didn't think I had. Also He has stabilized my emotions so that this peaceful feeling doesn't go away as long as I am doing what I am supposed to. I just can truly feel him with me. It is so real!!

MY companion and I are Whitewashing (that's when two new missionaries are put into an area) two wards.  First, Mojave Narrows = AMAZING WARD. These members know their people and they love their missionaries. We were welcomed with open arms into everyone's home. Plus they were so helpful and gave us information overload to help us out. The ward is teeny tiny; everybody knows everybody - they are all up in each others business. But that is just the way it goes here. I have had two very busy areas in my mission so far but this area tops those two in business by a long shot. The desert just has it going on!!!!!! We have appointments with everyone, everyone wants to talk to the missionaries! It is awesome!! 

Ridgecrest YSA is a different story. YSA = Whoa ! I probably just look like deer in the head lights the whole time at all the activities because being around young people my age as a missionary is just odd to say the least. BUT ALL THE KIDS ARE SO KIND! Seriously they are so cute and so happy. They actually want to be friends with the missionaries and they want to be share the gospel with their friends! It is going to be so fun to serve in this ward. :) 

Sister Castelo and I have 22 sisters that we are over... we cover the entire high desert of sister missionaries so that means we get to travel all over to go on exchanges with them. Wahoo! 

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVEDDDDD conference!!! It was amazing. Didn't ya think so?! 
I just felt sooo much LOVE from all the speakers. They truly love us! They want the best for us because our loving Heavenly Father wants the best for us! We must NEVER FORGET where and who we come from. Our Heavenly Heritage. Elder Rasband hit home for me. We have to see the theme that reoccurred this conference. The Restoration and the Plan of Salvation are the basics that we need to go back to. We shouldn't forget those either. So the spiritual experiences we have throughout our lives need to be laid on our foundation for us to go back to. 

I feel so strongly that that wraps up everything we need. We need to REMEMBER what we have in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints! 

Thank you for all your support and your love and prayers.

xoxo
Sister Holt

P.S. 
I promise I will  be better at pictures this week!!! :) 



Sister Castello and I -- new companion

Squash Farm

9.26.2016

Week 52: Transfers & New Beginnings Ahead



9.24.2016

Week 51: Trip to the Temple & Finding my Vision for Me

Love  this Book!
It feels like it has been a long time since I last wrote. Almost two weeks went by. The reason being was because we got to visit the Redlands Temple today (Thursday). It was beautiful and everything that I needed. I love the temple and not too many more words can explain my love for it. So there ya go!  Feel blessed that I could go.

LAST Thursday we had zone conference and Elder Dube of the Quorum of the Seventy came to speak to us. He is originally from Zimbabwe Africa and he is a ball of fire let me tell you that much. We had to sit in the chapel from 9 am to 3 pm and I don't think a single missionary yawned. He kept us awake and alive. It was such a good zone conference!! It is very unlike me to forget my notes to tell you what I learned but I will try to do it justice from my memory alone.
First we spent a lot of time talking about two different types of missionaries. The natural missionary and the disciple of Christ missionary. Basically based off the quote in Preach My Gospel page 6 by Spencer W. Kimball, " The setting apart may be taken literally; it is a setting apart from sin, apart from the carnal; apart from everything which is crude, low, vicious, cheap, or vulgar; set apart from the world to a higher plane of thought and activity. The blessing is conditional upon faithful performance." We took each of those main words and discussed the opposite for each one and that is the difference between these two types of missionaries. Sounds dramatic but it is so real. 

My favorite thing that I took away from this zone conference was to have a vision for myself. Pray to Heavenly Father to help me see my potential and a better vision for my future. Mainly to help me know that what I am doing RIGHT NOW WILL benefit me and my posterity later. Elder Dube kept saying that our posterity is relying on us!! That really stuck with me. 

" The most pathetic person is the person that has sight but no vision." - Helen Keller. 
Everything we do, we should have our vision in the back of our minds. It easier said then done but it can happen. In Moses 1:6-8 God lets Moses see his potential and God will let us see that too if we have that desire. Dependent on our faith, God will not withhold anything from us. I figured that my mission is to become, not to be. I am on my way to becoming who the Lord wants me to be... I am not that person yet and I am far from that but He is helping me see the vision he has for me. 

We had a good lesson with A. this week. We introduced the Book of Mormon and read the introduction to him. At the end I bore my testimony on how I came to know that it was true and he said that once he finishes reading it he hopes to bare a testimony like that as well. I thought this was sweet.... 

He also said.. "So what kind of effort are we making in helping everyone in the world read this Book of Mormon?" We said, "Well we have about 80,000 missionaries around the world working every day to share this message." He said, "80,000 is not enough... even if we had 8,000,000 that is still not enough!!" If this book is so important then we need WAY more than that!! AND I AGREE!!! We need everyone in the church sharing this truth that we have!  NOW is the time more than ever to FLOOD THE EARTH WITH THE BOOK OF MORMON! #PresidentEzraTaftBenson 
And when we do, we should NEVER hand out a closed book. We should always leave it with them open to something for them to read and ponder. 

Okay I don't have any more time!! I will write another one on Monday!! Which is transfers week.  I think I will be transferred out of Diamond Bar.

Keep being amazing! 
Love you all!!
xoxo
Sister Holt

P.s. I followed through with my goal and took many many many pictures this week!! 



Said goodbye to the Manzanares family! They are moving <3 I love them! 

 My posterity picture! My two babies and my grandbaby! (mission talk) 

Chino Sisters



9.12.2016

Week 50: Growing in Grace and Knowledge

Another AMAZING week as a missionary! This week I truly felt the Holy Ghost working through me which made for so many miracles. Where to even start...  

As you all know we have been really struggling to find people who are willing to listen to us. For the past 9 weeks, I don't know what was in the air but we couldn't talk to anybody about the gospel. It was really hard and we were really tired of it. BUT we knew that the Lord was testing us to see if he can trust us. We trucked through and kept being diligent and obedient. 

To start off this week we had district meeting on Tuesday and an Elder gave an amazing training (a training is basically just a lesson) about the Atonement of Jesus Christ. We were all supposed to come prepared with our favorite scripture on the Atonement. My favorite to share is Alma 7:11-13 but I knew someone else would choose that one so I chose a different one that means so much to me. It is... Doctrine & Covenants 50: 40-41
     "Behold, ye are little children and ye cannot bear all things now; ye must grow in grace and in   the knowledge of the truth. Fear not, little children, for you are mine, and I have overcome the world, and you are of them that my Father hath given me." 

I love this scripture because it can be personalized to me. I should not fear the time that I live in, I should not fear the world because I have a brother, a Savior who has already overcome all this for me. I can't and wasn't meant to do all this on my own but as I grow in his grace and in the knowledge of the truth, I can have the strength to endure all things given to me. 

After we shared our scriptures we watched a video about Jesus Christ and it went through all three phases of the Atonement while listening to Elder Jeffery R. Holland's talk 'Missionary ork and the Atonement.' It was a very powerful message. To sum it all up in a couple words... 
      Missionary work is not easy because Salvation is not a cheap experience. We have a reason to stand tall... all members... because we are standing with the best life that this world has and will ever know! I testify that that is true. 

Wednesday was amazing! We had a tentative appointment with a potential investigator named A. He is from Nigeria and has been in America for about a year and a half. He is so intelligent and very close to God. He let us in his home and we were able to teach him about the Restoration of the Gospel. We talked a lot about the Priesthood being restored and here on earth today. He was confused because he believes that there can more then one prophet on the earth at a time and that God works through more than just one man to take care of his children. His belief is correct. God has MANY MANY good, inspired men and women on earth working in various parts of the world teaching truths. BUT the priesthood is not found with all those inspired people. The priesthood needs to be passed down by the 'laying on of hands'; by someone who holds the authority. If it is not passed down that way it is lost. That is what happened during the Great Apostasy. But through the Prophet Joseph Smith, it has been restored to him from 3 of Christ's original apostles. And we have a prophet today who holds all the keys of the priesthood to lead, direct, and guide the church with direct communication from Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. After that it all made much sense to him. 

A ended up coming to church on Sunday for all three hours and he loved it!! He said he learned so much vital information. We watched the Restoration movie with him after church and he said he had many things to ponder and pray about. So pray pray pray that his desire to learn more will  be strengthened and we will be sufficient enough teachers for him! 

Then that same night we had a set family home evening with some members and their non member friends who have a daughter who has been coming to church for over a year and wants to be baptized. We were able to have a long conversation about the church and the gospel. We taught the Restoration and the spirit was so strong during the first vision. It grew stronger and stronger the whole night. The family is completely supportive of M's decision to join the church and they are all interested in learning more as well!! It will be really cool to see where this goes. #Forever families!! 

The girls in this family are amazing singers. We had a mini concert so we would hear them sing... no lie... they sound like Beyonce or Whitney Houston but BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!! Raw talent. They have never had voice lessons. #BLESSED!! 

This Friday was the Chinese Moon Festival. Which is basically a Chinese Thanksgiving! It was so fun. They had food and games. I didn't understand a thing they said but it was fun to be with them and experience that culture! Sweet and humble people. 

Saturday we were out on our feet finding all the day long! It was so fun. I have learned how to say "Do you want to come to church?" in Mandarin Chinese and so I was trying it out on Saturday and they understood me!!!!! They started spewing all this Chinese at me and I didn't understand anything. But It was cool they could understand my white girl Chinese! :) 

Later on Saturday, the last door before we went to dinner we were trying to find V our potential but ended up talking to her son T. Who is a young adult.... well mid twenties probably late thirties. But HE WAS SO PREPARED! He listened intently to everything I was saying while I was sharing the Restoration of the Gospel. He was nodding and asking questions and everything was making sense. #THESPIRIT He told us how weird it was this feeling or sense of HOPE again. We shared the Book of Mormon with him and he was so pumped. He is a fire fighter and a personal trainer so he is a very well off guy and yet he was so HUMBLE! It was amazing. He told us that he felt relieved and lifted and he didn't know what that feeling was.... I told him that it was the Spirit... and he said yeah "I guess it is the Spirit." T told us we could come back and teach him more. He didn't end up coming to church but that is OK! He recognized the Spirit and that is a miracle in itself. 

I am just amazed at the work of the Lord!! I was reading the story of Enos this week and I love verse 12. "After l had prayed and labored with all diligence, the Lord said unto me: I will grant unto thee according to thy desires, because of thy faith." Enos' desire was that all of God's children hear the gospel and be brought unto salvation. I have that same desire or at least try. For 9 weeks I have been trying so hard to share this glad message and teach someone, whomever will listen and we  just weren't having any success. But I never stopped praying for the opportunity to share it and praying for the strength to continue on. I know that the Lord knew my desires to teach and share and serve but I needed to learn this lesson of diligence and intense prayer. 

I am thankful for the lessons the Lord sends me. So thankful for be in His service here in California. Truly IS the sunshine state. SO happy to be here every day! 

I hope you all stay safe and healthy! 
XOXO
Sister Holt

P.S. I am setting a goal to be better at taking pictures! I am so sorry! 


Road Trip with the Rolling Ridge Sisters

Sister Crane and I -- Happy Sisters!

9.07.2016

Week 49: Shiny Moments Gone Bad :) But Funny

So I guess time doesn't stop even if we want it to.... Goodness Gracious I can't believe how fast this week went by!  

Let me just give a shout out to the Christ family in the Diamond Bar ward for taking amazing care of the missionaries! Sister Crane and I didn't have money or food for the week. We didn't make it known to anyone, but it was a concern of ours for sure, but we knew the Lord would provide. Low and behold, we were at the Christ's house and she asked us what we bought on our P-Day... we were silent. Next thing I knew she had three giant bags of goodies waiting for us at the door. #MIRACLE! I love them so much for many reasons other than just this moment :) 

On Wednesday, we had an awesome lesson with Tesan going over learning and serving in the church. She just received a calling to be the cleaning coordinator. She is in charge of making sure our church building gets clean and orderly. Let me tell you how inspired this calling is for her because she is one of the cleanest people I know. Our building has been spotless needless to say :) We talked about how each calling in the church has purpose and value. She is no less important than the bishop and we all contribute to building up the Lord's kingdom here on earth. 

Thursday was the "BOOK OF MORMON" day. We had 3 lessons with some less active members and we read the Book of Mormon with each of them. I think that has become one of my favorite types of lessons lately. I love reading and discussing the verses of scripture that we read. I learn something new every time! This book truly has power that is indescribable. 

Saturday I was on exchanges with Hermana Rosas. Yes I went to a Spanish area all day. It was soooo much fun. I really wish I could learn Spanish - these people are just so happy to talk to us!! Such a different contrast from my daily conversations with people. I actually did pick up a lot of different phrases in Spanish that day. It was fun! To say the least, this exchange was a pure miracle!! We were looking to contact a referral and one of my goals is to walk around the area before leaving it so that is what we did. We learned that this referral we were trying to contact was the wrong addresss!!!! We found the right address but G wasn't home. BUT we got to talk with M who is 17 and just graduated high school. We were able to teach her the Restoration and she accepted a Book of Mormon and said 'that was really beautiful to hear, I needed that!' We asked if we could return and teach her more and she was like, "Do you have time to come see me again?" haha OF COURSE WE DO! This is what we do!!! She laughed! My goodness, she is so prepared! 

Later that day we were walking a couple blocks off from where we needed to go and we walked past this big buff guy... but he didn't scare me even though he looked like he would punch me dead. I said, '"Hola!! Are you having a good day?!" And he stopped to talk to us!!!! We ended up teaching him about the Restoration and he accepted the Book of Mormon and told us that his best friend just returned from her mission in SLC. He was so pumped. He told us how much sense the Restoration lesson makes. It was amazing!!! We walked with him throughout the park. It was so fun! I love people!!!!

NOW Sunday was the best Sunday I have ever had on my mission, without a doubt. It was fast and testimony meeting and our chapel was packed! (There was a baby blessing as well). I like to sit in the front especially if we have investigators. But no one new came to church so it was just me, Tesan, and Sister Crane in the pew in the front. Towards  the end of the meeting Tesan leans over to me and says, "My heart is beating so fast!" And she kind of gives me a little grin... I said back, "I wonder whyyyyy" ;) A couple minutes later, she says, "Well I'm going and nothing is going to stop me!" 

Wellllll...... as she was getting out of the pew I noticed that she had a cute little shiny brown bum.... then a couple steps further I realized that it was her SLIP and that HER SKIRT WAS FALLING DOWN!!! I lunged forward and tried to pull up her skirt but I scared her by touching her bum that she turned around in shock .... hahah!! And  then her skirt feel completely down to her calves! She realized what was going on and LEAPED  back into the pew and landed right onto my lap! I tried to scoot over so she could just sit next to me but all that was happening was us scooting back and forth in the pew with her on my lap!!! Sister Crane's face was purple from laughing so hard and I was crying from laughing so hard and Tesan was crying too from laughing so hard. And the whole bishopric couldn't hold it together either. It was a riot let me tell you!! 

Once we pulled ourselves together, Tesan stood right back up and went to bare her testimony. It was true... nothing was going to hold her back!! SO INSPIRING! She is a champ! I was so proud of her. She held her cool and bore an absolutely beautiful, genuine, and original testimony. And she did it without her skirt falling down! She handled herself with such a class. Only Tesan could pull that off!! My hero! 

I later felt prompted to go bear my testimony. The spirit was so strong within me  and there wasn't anything holding me back!! It feels so good to bare my testimony to the ward. It is still scary for me. I never bore my testimony in church until college and that was horrifying (not for me but for the congregation) but I actually  I love it now. That is what a mission will do for ya I guess! : ) 

This week was truly a beautiful week full of many moments that I will remember forever. I absolutely love being a missionary. I am approaching my year mark and it is becoming a reality that I have been away for that long when to me it feels like 3 months. I am so grateful for journals, as I look back to when I started and where I am now. I can see the Lord working in me... molding me... changing me... and helping me every step of the way. I haven't been able to do this on my own. I truly know that He, my Savior, Jesus Christ has made it possible for me to continue each and every day. My relationship with Him has become more real and real in a way that I know without a doubt that He is there. It is so comforting not having any doubts... of Him, the gospel, this work. I truly know there is purpose for everything that happens and if we trust Him, It works out!!! It really does! Clarity is found within the restored gospel of Jesus Christ. 

Everything in the Gospel of Jesus Christ hangs on LOVE because that is what he has for us. And that is what we should have for everyone around us. I invite you to really study about what love really is. Study the life of Christ and learn of how he showed LOVE. It has changed me. 

I LOVE you all. I truly do. 
Have a beautiful week! 
<3 
Sister Holt
 


All the Sisters in the Chino Zone

All the Goodies Provided by the Christ Family -- Thank you!

With Tesan and Sister Crane on Labor Day!


8.29.2016

Week 48: The Priesthood Can Bless Us!!

We met a lot of crazy and interesting people this week. None of which were interested BUT we had some good stories and conversations with them. Which is what a mission is all about, Am I right?!  

For weeks Sister Crane and I both felt that we need to tract Tanglewood, which is a street in our area. We have gone out a couple weeks and just forget or don't have time. Anyways! We finally went and got it done. We found like 5 potentials! The first door we knocked on, I had a special feeling that this would be a good one. But no one answered. So we continued to tract the whole street and when we walked around the block and came back to our car a couple hours later, there was a car parked in this driveway of this first house. I knew that it wasn't there before but Sister Crane thought it was. I said, "OH WELL! Let's go knock again anyways!" Turns out that this man, R, has been looking for a way to connect with God and has been yearning for a relationship with him. He didn't have time to listen to our message but he said that we could come back! I bore testimony that it wasn't a coincidence that we showed up on his doorstep that day and that if he would truly ask with real intent if this is right, God will answer him as I handed him a Restoration Pamphlet. And he said, "Alright, I think I will actually read this." GOOD! 

My favorite thing lately has been going to the parks in our area to contact people who are out with their families. On Wednesday we met so many great people. C who doesn't live in Diamond Bar but he knows that the missionaries are teaching in his neighborhood. We talked for a while about religion and our beliefs. We committed C to talk to the missionaries next time he sees them. He said he would! We also contacted a former investigator and set up a return appointment for this week with her! We are very excited about it. 

For quite some time I have felt the prompting to get a priesthood blessing. But I kept brushing it off because I didn't feel like I really needed one. But Tuesday morning I had a very strong impression from the Spirit to get one that day from a specific elder. I was really still fighting it. I am not sure why I was so much but I was. I finally just let go and asked for one. As soon as I did, I felt peace knowing that Heavenly Father really needs to tell me something. So many answers came flooding in through the blessing that I received and so much clarity! FYI this elder had never met me before nor had I ever met him. But I knew that Heavenly Father needed him to give me this blessing. I want to tell you how powerful and true the power of the priesthood is. It is so real! There is absolutely no way that a 19 year old elder could give me such a perfect blessing, telling me exactly what I need to hear, addressing so many concerns and worries of mine without knowing me. The priesthood is truly God's authority and power here on the earth. He truly can speak to us through worthy vessels by the priesthood. Nothing could be so perfect. #miracle

We had a lesson with Madeline and also Marsha. We are really trying our best to get everyone into the Book of Mormon. So they can gain their own testimony of the important role this book plays in our salvation. I believe that if all of us came to understand the importance of the Book of Mormon more, Christ would come a lot sooner. ;) 

I have been thinking a lot about the Plan of Salvation lately and just how lucky we are to have it in our lives. I don't know what I would do without this knowledge. Life would be so pointless and empty. 

I love you all! 
Have a beautiful safe week! 

Sister Holt





8.22.2016

Week 47: To Achieve and Be Happy -- We have Got to WORK!

Another week.... It really feels like it has been a year since I last emailed home. This week was long - we were figuring out a lot of different things this week which made for a long week. Plus we don't have many people to teach which makes it extra long. BUT that doesn't take away from the many miracles we still experience. God is so good. I just need to be patient. :)  

Last couple of weeks we have been digging through our area book. Which is a binder that is kept in an area full of teaching records from past people that have been taught or visited by the missionaries that could possibly be interested in the future. It is one of my least favorite activities on the mission. If it has anything to do with the area book, I am not super excited. But I am trying to love it. We have been praying about former or potential investigators from the area book but haven't had too much luck. They have all either moved away or not interested still. At least we are sifting through all the records for the next missionaries. 

On Wednesday we had a very cool experience.  We choose some people out of the area book to go see.  Once we are there in that area, we usually stay around and knock on a few doors and talk to anyone we see because the Lord took us to these streets for a reason. Right?!!!

Sister Crane and I both felt that something special was going to happen but we had no idea. We rang this doorbell and out walks R. She is a young mom of a 6 year old. She said that Elders used to come by years ago and she told us how they were so nice and fun. We asked her if she ever would want to learn more and she said, "NO". So we said well would you want to at least come to church with us and bring your son? And she said,  "NO, I'm not very religious at this point." we told her that's okay... and kept talking about something and the next thing we knew we were inside her house on the couch. THE FIRST HOUSE WE HAVE BEEN LET INTO IN WEEKS!!!!! We ended up talking to her for a least an hour and a half. She is soo sweet. PLUS, last week her best friend since they were 15 just got baptized and is preparing to be sealed in the temple this winter. R just told us how her mother is crazy in religion so it just turns her off of the subject really fast. We just had a simple conversation about our experiences and how we have gotten where we are today and what we have learned. She really admired our testimonies. She gave us her number so we could come back and see her!!   M I R A C L E ! 

We had zone conference this Thursday which is like a 5 hour long ordeal. It kills me but I learn so much every time! We talked mainly about Finding since that it the Preach My Gospel chapter this month. We discussed Faith... and how faith and fear cannot coexist together. And we cannot be successful when we fear. The minute we let fear into our minds is the minute we let Satan win. Fear is powerful and can limit our success. But faith brings miracles! And only God can work miracles!!! 

"To achieve and Be happy, we have got to work!!" 

Sounds terrible to have to work to be happy, but I have found this to be true. When we let our natural man overtake us, which is usually the easier way, we are less happy! It takes work to be happy!!  It takes us to act to be happy!! 

The four keys to success that President Frimage gave me are... 

1. Obedience 
2. Love your companion 
3. Love the people
4. Work Hard! 

I have found that on my mission as I do the first three things everyday that the last one doesn't seem so hard. Working hard becomes fun and becomes easy!  No matter what else is happening around me I can find happiness through these things. And I know they can be applied to our lives even when we aren't missionaries. 

I love this work and I love this calling! FOREVER THANKFUL! 

Love love love you always, 
Please be safe in all you do, 

Sister Holt 


Me -  Being silly me!

Sister Crane and I --- beautiful Sunset in Diamond Bar